ps. i absolutely adore shakespeare
he is most enjoyable to my mind
his plays, and words, and clever plots
are most intriguing to the plait of my life.
because your life is continually weaving itself
like a tapestry
with threads from tv shows
from newspaper articles
from that conversation you had with a friend last night
from the phone call you had with your mum last year
and the first time your dad ever told you off
the times you have told yourself you'll never drink that much again
the times you have laughed at ridiculous things that only seem funny at the time
the times when your sport team won the grand final
the days when you only worried about what colour crayon was nicest
the days when you only wanted to score goals at sport to impress the girls
the days when you grew up and realized that life is not a fairytale
however i must say
even though i'm aware that YEAH HELLO
of course i'm just human
and that means i laugh when i'm tickled
want revenge first off after i've been hurt
find it offensive to be spat upon directly
and so on
i'm also aware that the way my mind works
is a little bit more lateral than normal, a little lets say... sideways
rather than upright and forthcoming
i mean i've written it before
and i'll write it again
you can make whatever decision you wish to make
at the end of the day
you are just one person
and many many many people are out there
making their own choices
you think about your own
you think you can pull me down by doing something right in my face
like asking for a plastic bag for a shaving cream bottle,
thats it
you think you can pull me down
with nasty words
nasty looks
big tough muscles
and scary memories
no smiles in your eyes
and extremely weather worn
spirits
wrong
if i wished
i could make you cry
because i've said it before
and i'll say it again
the only thing that scares me
more than anything on earth
is me
that simple
its the way it should be
cos i'm the only one who knows myself 100%
and i know that shit is shitty
i'm not asking you to prove it to me
what i see on television is proof enough for me
for my heart and mind
eventually i will go looking actively for the 'scary stuff'
in this world
but at the end of the day
when i get angry
not just angry like, oh your annoying me
or mum and dad i hate your guts for not listening to me
or BLOODY HELL I LEFT MY PHONE AT HOME
or i want my ex bf to suffer
or any bullshit like that
all of it is silly stuff
that passes by
like it should
no i'm talking about the kind of anger
that makes you
simply terrified of being human
its really really childish
but it always reminds me of obi wan kanobi
and yoda
and luke skywalker
and how they're all like
the force is strong in him
but beware, it can turn bad
i've said it before, i'll say it again,
all the most wonderful things around us
sit right next to, no literally hug the worst possible imaginable things
they're just invisible to you
because you are not feeling them
and they are not colouring your world
i scare myself
more than anyone else around me
my dreams terrify me
more than any human person ever could
and this is the source of my self control
my practice of meditation
and my... sideways thinking
i personally have things that actively make me seek out
ways to help me out
because i can clearly see, without TV shows telling me
that altruism is good for the blood pressure long term,
its good for happiness levels, and its good for the mentality,
i can see that i like doing it cause it makes me feel better
that easy
anyhow
shakespeares plays express this part of me wonderfully
the part that thinks sideways
and wants to pull apart ideas and put them back together
shakespeare's work has this effect i'm sure
due to the timelessness of his words striking a chord in every person
all i have to say is
watch
Merchant of Venice (2004) starring al pacino an oscar award winner and a great actor (he was interesting in 'scarface' too)
this film i think
has a lot of things to say
about the paradoxes of human pride
the irony of justice and mercy
and the unpredictable uncontrollable thing we like to call love
i respect every faithful person around
however you find your faith
for want of using better words
maybe however you find your strength
and values echoed around you
i respect you for knowing where you stand in this world
and if you don't know
then get reading some stuff you are vaguely interested in
magazines, forums, library books
and soon you will know
pps. i'm tired of saying that i'm just an opinionated young woman
who wants to mix things up a little bit
dont take my words so much to heart
i don't mean to stir you up so much, you know?
read it
think about it
ditch it if you want
just like any other book or article or forum
you know yourself better than i do
just use your brains please
cos we got brains for a reason
to use them
same goes with hearts and our conscience
and i love it how that word is made up of the word science and con
anywayyyyyyy
enough of my ramblinggggg
all the best in every way (:
Britta
he is most enjoyable to my mind
his plays, and words, and clever plots
are most intriguing to the plait of my life.
because your life is continually weaving itself
like a tapestry
with threads from tv shows
from newspaper articles
from that conversation you had with a friend last night
from the phone call you had with your mum last year
and the first time your dad ever told you off
the times you have told yourself you'll never drink that much again
the times you have laughed at ridiculous things that only seem funny at the time
the times when your sport team won the grand final
the days when you only worried about what colour crayon was nicest
the days when you only wanted to score goals at sport to impress the girls
the days when you grew up and realized that life is not a fairytale
however i must say
even though i'm aware that YEAH HELLO
of course i'm just human
and that means i laugh when i'm tickled
want revenge first off after i've been hurt
find it offensive to be spat upon directly
and so on
i'm also aware that the way my mind works
is a little bit more lateral than normal, a little lets say... sideways
rather than upright and forthcoming
i mean i've written it before
and i'll write it again
you can make whatever decision you wish to make
at the end of the day
you are just one person
and many many many people are out there
making their own choices
you think about your own
you think you can pull me down by doing something right in my face
like asking for a plastic bag for a shaving cream bottle,
thats it
you think you can pull me down
with nasty words
nasty looks
big tough muscles
and scary memories
no smiles in your eyes
and extremely weather worn
spirits
wrong
if i wished
i could make you cry
because i've said it before
and i'll say it again
the only thing that scares me
more than anything on earth
is me
that simple
its the way it should be
cos i'm the only one who knows myself 100%
and i know that shit is shitty
i'm not asking you to prove it to me
what i see on television is proof enough for me
for my heart and mind
eventually i will go looking actively for the 'scary stuff'
in this world
but at the end of the day
when i get angry
not just angry like, oh your annoying me
or mum and dad i hate your guts for not listening to me
or BLOODY HELL I LEFT MY PHONE AT HOME
or i want my ex bf to suffer
or any bullshit like that
all of it is silly stuff
that passes by
like it should
no i'm talking about the kind of anger
that makes you
simply terrified of being human
its really really childish
but it always reminds me of obi wan kanobi
and yoda
and luke skywalker
and how they're all like
the force is strong in him
but beware, it can turn bad
i've said it before, i'll say it again,
all the most wonderful things around us
sit right next to, no literally hug the worst possible imaginable things
they're just invisible to you
because you are not feeling them
and they are not colouring your world
i scare myself
more than anyone else around me
my dreams terrify me
more than any human person ever could
and this is the source of my self control
my practice of meditation
and my... sideways thinking
i personally have things that actively make me seek out
ways to help me out
because i can clearly see, without TV shows telling me
that altruism is good for the blood pressure long term,
its good for happiness levels, and its good for the mentality,
i can see that i like doing it cause it makes me feel better
that easy
anyhow
shakespeares plays express this part of me wonderfully
the part that thinks sideways
and wants to pull apart ideas and put them back together
shakespeare's work has this effect i'm sure
due to the timelessness of his words striking a chord in every person
all i have to say is
watch
Merchant of Venice (2004) starring al pacino an oscar award winner and a great actor (he was interesting in 'scarface' too)
this film i think
has a lot of things to say
about the paradoxes of human pride
the irony of justice and mercy
and the unpredictable uncontrollable thing we like to call love
i respect every faithful person around
however you find your faith
for want of using better words
maybe however you find your strength
and values echoed around you
i respect you for knowing where you stand in this world
and if you don't know
then get reading some stuff you are vaguely interested in
magazines, forums, library books
and soon you will know
pps. i'm tired of saying that i'm just an opinionated young woman
who wants to mix things up a little bit
dont take my words so much to heart
i don't mean to stir you up so much, you know?
read it
think about it
ditch it if you want
just like any other book or article or forum
you know yourself better than i do
just use your brains please
cos we got brains for a reason
to use them
same goes with hearts and our conscience
and i love it how that word is made up of the word science and con
anywayyyyyyy
enough of my ramblinggggg
all the best in every way (:
Britta
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