today i yelled at someone. in all fairness i was yelling because they were yelling.
afterwards i was shaking from the adrenalin. like a wild animal being hunted down.
i personally felt like i was being pushed to the ground.
after school walking home i cried.
now i didn't only cry because i'd been scared out of my wits (although it seemed like i'd just gotten very angry nd i did indeed stand up for myself)
however i later realized that i should have stopped. calmed down. told the ppl yelling to calm down. then say sorry for my mistake. explain why i did my mistake. then move on. it would have saved so many psycho emotions you would not believe it!
i was so majorly stressed out on my own little planet that i didn't realize what was happening around me.
i had a maths sac next period felt like i was really badly prepared for it, so was frantically trying to prep for it at lunchtime before the bell.
some people ate inside the vce study room, so we got locked out. this irritated me as i FELT that i really needed to study.
however i ate inside the vce room too.
anyway everyone else inside the vce room got kicked out and sat in the middle of the locker aisles so it was difficult to walk, especially for someone frantically stressing. i attempted to jump over a whole heap of legs and understandably this didn't work and i hit someone. that someone's girlfriend got very protective (understandably its her boyfriend), as a result she lashed out to protect her "territory". not only this but it is highly likely that polite behaviour, saying excuse me even when in a mad rush, is something this girl was taught since she was young, if she isn't polite she gets yelled at. so,
in this scenario what does she do? see someone not being polite, and pass on the yelling.
here is my point.
don't force yourself to do anything.
THINK about what you are doing from every person's side.
stop.
reflect.
explain.
say sorry.
move on.
young children will only remember the yelling. the intensity of hate coming from the adult or person yelling.
and the feeling of being scared and upset. i am 18 and thus i remember.
children won't.
they will learn the wrong lesson.
and then pass this wrong lesson onto every similar situation they see.
also everyone makes mistakes.
its human.
don't go hating yourself because you find life hard to deal with
when it puts you through the ringer.
everyone's life is difficult sometimes.
when rain falls, it falls on all roofs. (rain being the difficulty of life)
so don't torture yourself over a mistake.
think through it.
have a damn good cry about it.
realize what you did.
say sorry for what you did.
then strive to not do it again next time.
hope everyone has a lovely weekend
all the best in every way
Britta :)
afterwards i was shaking from the adrenalin. like a wild animal being hunted down.
i personally felt like i was being pushed to the ground.
after school walking home i cried.
now i didn't only cry because i'd been scared out of my wits (although it seemed like i'd just gotten very angry nd i did indeed stand up for myself)
however i later realized that i should have stopped. calmed down. told the ppl yelling to calm down. then say sorry for my mistake. explain why i did my mistake. then move on. it would have saved so many psycho emotions you would not believe it!
i was so majorly stressed out on my own little planet that i didn't realize what was happening around me.
i had a maths sac next period felt like i was really badly prepared for it, so was frantically trying to prep for it at lunchtime before the bell.
some people ate inside the vce study room, so we got locked out. this irritated me as i FELT that i really needed to study.
however i ate inside the vce room too.
anyway everyone else inside the vce room got kicked out and sat in the middle of the locker aisles so it was difficult to walk, especially for someone frantically stressing. i attempted to jump over a whole heap of legs and understandably this didn't work and i hit someone. that someone's girlfriend got very protective (understandably its her boyfriend), as a result she lashed out to protect her "territory". not only this but it is highly likely that polite behaviour, saying excuse me even when in a mad rush, is something this girl was taught since she was young, if she isn't polite she gets yelled at. so,
in this scenario what does she do? see someone not being polite, and pass on the yelling.
here is my point.
don't force yourself to do anything.
THINK about what you are doing from every person's side.
stop.
reflect.
explain.
say sorry.
move on.
young children will only remember the yelling. the intensity of hate coming from the adult or person yelling.
and the feeling of being scared and upset. i am 18 and thus i remember.
children won't.
they will learn the wrong lesson.
and then pass this wrong lesson onto every similar situation they see.
also everyone makes mistakes.
its human.
don't go hating yourself because you find life hard to deal with
when it puts you through the ringer.
everyone's life is difficult sometimes.
when rain falls, it falls on all roofs. (rain being the difficulty of life)
so don't torture yourself over a mistake.
think through it.
have a damn good cry about it.
realize what you did.
say sorry for what you did.
then strive to not do it again next time.
hope everyone has a lovely weekend
all the best in every way
Britta :)
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