Mateo. I am completely
aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you
as an example. I believe in your potential. Contradictory to your
belief I still view you as a good friend. You are within the circle, but
in a very different way, as a brotherly friend. If i saw you in the
street today i would probably walk up and hug you despite all the
previous pain. Because in the end i learnt an amazing amount. I no
longer use music. I use my own inner heart. [more about this later]
Simon. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. Secondhand information from relatives can colour ones view quite significantly.
Elin. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been my sister all along, and although there were negatives; i held onto and continue to hold onto the positives.
Anders. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been my brother all along, and that has been something enormously helpful to me in times of dire need.
Lisa. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been a huge part of creating my confidence, belief, and stability, through love. I was a difficult child, you did an amazing job.
Andrew. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been a huge part of creating my intelligence, my manners, my respect. I was a difficult child, you did an amazing job.
Barbara and Russel. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are good people. I am sorry for using you both as an example [albeit a positive/negative one in a letter]. I believe in your potential. Although there are expectations, there also lies a fundamental bond that allowed me to see me for who i really was.
Tom, Jane, Anty, Jamie, Rob, Lillemor, Elsa, Hannah. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are good people. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. In previous letters a long time ago, in word of mouth communication etc. You have all helped me out in positive ways along the cycle of my life, without these events I would not be who I am today.
Bronwyn, Zara, Kiera, Andie, Mel, Mieke. I am completely aware that you are all fundamentally good people. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. My written/spoken communication tends to be exaggerated and the truth is very different to each person when experienced.
To all of the subsequent symbolic versions of 'mateo' produced through my letters, view me as i dunno, abstract, not part of your life. take the advice, but not the emotions towards me. direct the consequent emotions towards those you know. because unknowingly people instinctively seek out people who know how to give what they need. so the people you choose, give you/know how to give you, what you need.
ooh! i know! if you wish, see me as a bird, able to fly above my problems and see the map of the city, instead of walking amongst the confusingly busy streets and lanes, possibly even at night time, depending on how far away from reality your understanding is. the map is the direction to the bigger picture of problems. the confusing laneways are the walk of life.
Everything I write, word, sentence, 'note', or letter, or poem, or speak, or sing, or even think about, seems to make such an enormous splash.
Interesting how although months ago I explained everything: just to rehash>>
i am common. my sensitivity is uncommon.
somehow within the use of one word: psychic, and the paragraph explaining it, I created a reality for myself to deal with. 5 hours of it.
That was a bit silly wasn't it? interesting how many asians turned up feeling the common judgement because of the use of the word asiatic.
So, i ask you to re-read all that I have written if you ever feel the need. But as previously written, society hangs upon specialists who are paid to do specific things.
If the medicare doesn't cover it, seek out your own wise ppl>>parents, friends, teachers, older, mature, clear mindsighted people. [i just made up a new word btw] C:
also, i remembered something explained to me.
if i asked you where your future lies in relation to your body, you would normally say 'in front of me' 'ahead of me'. but hang on, we can't see our future. so we must clearly be facing our past. therefore what else is there to do but to take advantage of the wealth of knowledge you have gained throughout your entire life time? do it bit by bit though. not all at once. every part of your life can be changed. every corner can be helped.
if it's too difficult, seek out a professional with an open mind. if someone trusted and longstanding is available maybe you would prefer them?
however all the 'wise' people, you have a duty. don't judge. don't force. don't argue. strive for balance. equality. simplicity.
as buddha says; the softer the advice falls, the deeper it sinks, just like snowflakes falling into the snow.
the solution is not invisible at all. it is not a riddle. it is not so difficult as everything makes it seem.
a scientific/philosophic process shown to me, [originating from Aristotle (taught by Mr.Pike)] goes like this
1. what is the problem.
(i) e.g. if godzilla entered brighton secondary college most people would scream in terror and run for their lives. however the one person who stays and faces godzilla can get a good look at what godzilla looks like. once you get a good look, you give yourself the chance to figure out how to deal with godzilla, what does godzilla look like? how is godzilla doing what godzilla is doing? what makes godzilla do this? why are all the people running from godzilla? what can be done to turn godzilla into god, or buddha, or allah, or the jewish 'god'.
so. godzilla is the problem. every different symbol for the same concept of 'god' is the solution.
they are both common everyday things.
not mysterious. not invisible. not nothing.
actually quite concrete. based in your childhood, and your entire lifetime.
i apologize to every person for pulling the rug out from underneath your feet with that essay, i was simply creating awareness, and with awareness comes great shock. with shock comes confusion.
re-read my other notes however many times you need. discuss. share. learn. help.
that is all i ask, nothing more, and nothing less.
it isn't a must. you shouldn't force yourSELVES either. let it be something you enjoy. you love. simply to help.
for i believe that is the meaning of life. to help. SELF and OTHERS.
also: i have learnt at heartland- eating buying crunchy foods [like chips] is angry eating. buying bubbly things [like soft drink]=stress.
also from lie to me and every other film i've consumed. from my father and mother. my grandfather and grandmother. every friend i've had. from so many countless fiction books, specifically chosen to suit my interests. my knowledge doesn't come from nowhere. my existence isn't something otherworldly. it has origins like every person.
all the best to you in every way, for a wonderful wednesday.
(: Britta
Simon. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. Secondhand information from relatives can colour ones view quite significantly.
Elin. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been my sister all along, and although there were negatives; i held onto and continue to hold onto the positives.
Anders. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been my brother all along, and that has been something enormously helpful to me in times of dire need.
Lisa. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been a huge part of creating my confidence, belief, and stability, through love. I was a difficult child, you did an amazing job.
Andrew. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are a good person. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. You have been a huge part of creating my intelligence, my manners, my respect. I was a difficult child, you did an amazing job.
Barbara and Russel. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are good people. I am sorry for using you both as an example [albeit a positive/negative one in a letter]. I believe in your potential. Although there are expectations, there also lies a fundamental bond that allowed me to see me for who i really was.
Tom, Jane, Anty, Jamie, Rob, Lillemor, Elsa, Hannah. I am completely aware that fundamentally you are good people. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. In previous letters a long time ago, in word of mouth communication etc. You have all helped me out in positive ways along the cycle of my life, without these events I would not be who I am today.
Bronwyn, Zara, Kiera, Andie, Mel, Mieke. I am completely aware that you are all fundamentally good people. I am sorry for using you as an example. I believe in your potential. My written/spoken communication tends to be exaggerated and the truth is very different to each person when experienced.
To all of the subsequent symbolic versions of 'mateo' produced through my letters, view me as i dunno, abstract, not part of your life. take the advice, but not the emotions towards me. direct the consequent emotions towards those you know. because unknowingly people instinctively seek out people who know how to give what they need. so the people you choose, give you/know how to give you, what you need.
ooh! i know! if you wish, see me as a bird, able to fly above my problems and see the map of the city, instead of walking amongst the confusingly busy streets and lanes, possibly even at night time, depending on how far away from reality your understanding is. the map is the direction to the bigger picture of problems. the confusing laneways are the walk of life.
Everything I write, word, sentence, 'note', or letter, or poem, or speak, or sing, or even think about, seems to make such an enormous splash.
Interesting how although months ago I explained everything: just to rehash>>
i am common. my sensitivity is uncommon.
somehow within the use of one word: psychic, and the paragraph explaining it, I created a reality for myself to deal with. 5 hours of it.
That was a bit silly wasn't it? interesting how many asians turned up feeling the common judgement because of the use of the word asiatic.
So, i ask you to re-read all that I have written if you ever feel the need. But as previously written, society hangs upon specialists who are paid to do specific things.
If the medicare doesn't cover it, seek out your own wise ppl>>parents, friends, teachers, older, mature, clear mindsighted people. [i just made up a new word btw] C:
also, i remembered something explained to me.
if i asked you where your future lies in relation to your body, you would normally say 'in front of me' 'ahead of me'. but hang on, we can't see our future. so we must clearly be facing our past. therefore what else is there to do but to take advantage of the wealth of knowledge you have gained throughout your entire life time? do it bit by bit though. not all at once. every part of your life can be changed. every corner can be helped.
if it's too difficult, seek out a professional with an open mind. if someone trusted and longstanding is available maybe you would prefer them?
however all the 'wise' people, you have a duty. don't judge. don't force. don't argue. strive for balance. equality. simplicity.
as buddha says; the softer the advice falls, the deeper it sinks, just like snowflakes falling into the snow.
the solution is not invisible at all. it is not a riddle. it is not so difficult as everything makes it seem.
a scientific/philosophic process shown to me, [originating from Aristotle (taught by Mr.Pike)] goes like this
1. what is the problem.
(i) e.g. if godzilla entered brighton secondary college most people would scream in terror and run for their lives. however the one person who stays and faces godzilla can get a good look at what godzilla looks like. once you get a good look, you give yourself the chance to figure out how to deal with godzilla, what does godzilla look like? how is godzilla doing what godzilla is doing? what makes godzilla do this? why are all the people running from godzilla? what can be done to turn godzilla into god, or buddha, or allah, or the jewish 'god'.
so. godzilla is the problem. every different symbol for the same concept of 'god' is the solution.
they are both common everyday things.
not mysterious. not invisible. not nothing.
actually quite concrete. based in your childhood, and your entire lifetime.
i apologize to every person for pulling the rug out from underneath your feet with that essay, i was simply creating awareness, and with awareness comes great shock. with shock comes confusion.
re-read my other notes however many times you need. discuss. share. learn. help.
that is all i ask, nothing more, and nothing less.
it isn't a must. you shouldn't force yourSELVES either. let it be something you enjoy. you love. simply to help.
for i believe that is the meaning of life. to help. SELF and OTHERS.
also: i have learnt at heartland- eating buying crunchy foods [like chips] is angry eating. buying bubbly things [like soft drink]=stress.
also from lie to me and every other film i've consumed. from my father and mother. my grandfather and grandmother. every friend i've had. from so many countless fiction books, specifically chosen to suit my interests. my knowledge doesn't come from nowhere. my existence isn't something otherworldly. it has origins like every person.
all the best to you in every way, for a wonderful wednesday.
(: Britta
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