my mother. my father.
and thus my territory.
i protect.
what the bloody hell do you think your doing?
how dare you attack my parents.
how DARE YOU!
both my parents have spent up to 10 years of their lifetimes
in universities. reading. learning. being taught.
wait! my dad's spent 20 years because now he's the teacher.
you are entire institutions.
they are singular people.
HOW FUCKING DARE YOU GANG UP ON THEM!
I HATE YOU ALL!
omgosh. what am i DOing?
i need to calm down.
ok.
so my mother spent 10 years in uni. and has spent 20-25 years
in australia. 20-25 years in sweden.
my father grew up here. but he spent some time in america as a child.
he also spent some time in sweden. as a teenager/adult.
so education in 2-3 places.
parents (or grandparents) who as far as I know are very good and kind.
and they are by no means insane.
they have simply lived with the proof all their lives.
if you deny and disbelieve.
WELL BLOODY HELL!
simply go and ask someone who has a concrete story/ example via a real experience with me to tell you.
jebus its hard to sleep when you let this happen to you.
i spent the hours of something like 2am to 6am writing this.
i realize why cos i've had time and seclusion.
anyhow. back to the beginning. here i go. *intake of breath* and dive.
so what am i doing? swimming.
a long time ago approximately two years ago i was outraged by the label
witch. offended to the core.
i asked someone to treat me like one then. treat me like a witch then.
throw me in the river. if i sink like a piece of wood i am human. because humans sink.
if i float then clearly i am a witch.
but what? hang ooooooooooooon. someone's a witch because they can swim?
swimming is a learnt thing. its nothing to be afraid of. but back then swimming
was not a learnt thing. it was something foreign. something to be afraid of.
as was water. it was not understood.
so called 'witches' are doctors. they fundamentally understood the power of herbs.
they experimented with mixing herbs in their natural state. tea. soup. whatever you wish to call it.
for medicinal effects. they were experts learning from specific things. and what did we do?
kill them all. put them in trials. and hang them up on ropes? or burn them alive in fires.
well sorry but according to me, if everyone's religion is right [positive] well then everyone's going to hell.
because as a jew if u don't believe in christianity you go to hell. as a muslim if you don't believe in judaism you go to hell.
as a christian if you don't believe in buddhism you go to hell. what? so everyone's believing different things, i mean
we're different people, does that mean we're all going to hell?
well sooooooorreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for offending you. but logically that doesn't make sense to me.
everyone's going to hell? what's this hell place your on about. where is it. have you visited it? can you tell me about it.
because i'm sure some people live in it here on earth. and i'm sure some people live in heaven here on earth. its called depression. and happiness. a beautiful dream. a scary dream.
so. here's what i wrote.
function of a book: to give knowledge. what determines it: the way it is used by the person.
if you remain unconvinced here is the basis of my knowledge as far as i can recall:
the isobelle carmody obernewtyn chronicles. sound like japan-america? egypt-italy?
philip pullamn-dark trilogy chronicles, look like christianity modern day?
lian hearn-chronicles umm. . . the pillow one, the nightinggale floor, the cuckoos nest etc. [japan/china not sure which one] ?
juliet marrilier-chronicles- umm the dark mirror etc [ireland]. wildwood dancing [turkey]
something franklin biography-similar to marie curie the scientist's story, except discovery of DNA.
alchemist-paulo coelho
the detective stories [african] with colourful covers, a female main character and her detective business.
astrid lindgren's stories-as movies
disney's stories-as both movies and books
the full metal alchemist-anime series
les miserables-anime series
heroes-US tv show
lie to me-US tv show
OC-US tv show
arthur
the irish cartoon w the pigs & animals
animal farm-george orwell
1984-george orwell
catcher in the rye-J.D.Salinger
odo hirsch-chronicles&novels-including the one about a butcher/knife something
as well as the mouse, and the little girl, and the adventurer ones.
a floating house book. about a house on a boat. with the picture on the cover.
emily rodda. the charm bracelet series. and the journey of a man through a world series [the jewels one] and one of the books from the series called bushka or something. to do with a society herding cows going up into the mountains and finding a golden society.
doften av vanilj [swedish] book, about connecting smells to memories [emotional memories]
en tjejs kyss [or something like that] like peter pan. the importance of holding onto your first kiss.
nackrosdammen. that series. about a girl going through high school during wartime.
the secret garden [read in swedish]
umm... that swedish cat cartoon in the books with the black&white cat.
höstlöv or something. a series of books about a girl going through school as a teenager as a 'normal' person.
the colour scarlett or something. about king richard.
rosa-russia. the society/historically. THE BEAR! that news article! nothing ridiculous, but something grounded! i get it! wow getting things makes me excited. not getting things makes me upset. anyhow.
the wind singer-about muslims- a princess hidden behind a veil.
does my head look big in this?
that rain in spain falls mainly on the plain movie. . . my fair lady? 'proper' manners. rules.
the taxi driver-robert de niro. potential for danger.
bomben [swedish film]. terrorism.
the cat returns-anime movie-communism.
rain men-tom cruise-autism.
this is good as it gets-jack nicholson. happiness.
bucket list-morgan freeman. dreams to fulfill.
unbreakable-samuel jackson and bruce willis. a weakness is something that can be overcome.
rage in placid lake-finding self identity. hilarious rebellion.
the bridge to terabithia-dakota fanning. the beautiful escape of childhood fantasy.
the little mermaid
the swan princess
madeline
all possibly myths turned into shows?
pippi long stockings- inspiration for childhood. the creative freedom yet mature learning to be independent.
ronja rövar dotter. the male and female becoming friends and forming a bond between a fight. . . romeo and juliet anyone? or. . . britta and mateo maybe? what a ludicrous suggestion.
karlsson på taket- a prime minister's name used to symbolize something. [laughed at in russia because of the recognition to the movie] :)
rain-something-girl w a list [dark hair]. alternative movie. made by an alternative production group.
thread- french- something to do with cancer/pregnancy, wears her hair up in a towel similar to the girl with a pearl earring but only cos of the towel.
water- indian film. deepa mehta. amazing. studied in year 12 last year.
emma- the old version with judy campbell and ralph michael. 1948. the importance of not dabbling in others affairs and mixing it up unintentionally without knowing the full story.
whale rider- the importance of the environment. respect. community.
esther blueberger- the aussie version of mean girls. pretty funny!
unit one.-teamwork to discover the seed of a problem and to solve it.
förbrydelsen. the same thing.
chocolat. wind. change. so many things. you interpret it :D
cooking movie-kitchen, the french one. with an alcoholic woman in a restaurant. blonde. goes through change.
so. clearly i have a good recall. where does this come from i wonder?
my mother has an amazing recall of numbers. so do i.
off by heart i can reel: my sisters mobile, my mother's mob, my fathers, felicity's, jamie's, my mother and fathers work phones[dad uses his mob], my grandparents home phone.
sorry anders! haven't memorized yours for some reason. . .
my new home phone. my old home phone. my new car registration. my old car registration. RZM 714. NPP 979.
not mine. my family's.
just ask me, i'll recall perfectly if you wish :D
you think i'm showing off do you? no no. not seeking attention. seeking understanding. awareness.
i can make a mistake- such as entering $10 given into a register, when $6.70 was given accidently. thus having learnt to count back to $10 from $6.70 i fixed it.
i have read through every school report given to me. my parents tell me all the feedback from teachers. explaining. according to my mathematics teacher i have a natural gift for mathematics. however it is my weakest area. i did a test @ alpine school. my square looked something like this: look to the uploaded photograph.
there are huge institutions/societies of people that have experienced me and my history.
grovedale west- b4 maturity. waurn ponds-vic-australia
bellbrae-after maturity. bellbrae/torquay/jan juc- vic-australia
matthew flinders gsc-geelong cbd-vic-australia
the alpine school-vic alps-vic-australia
sweden-allé skolan-floda-lerum-gothenburg-sweden
monash-clayton-vic-australia
do you wish me to recalll everyone's names, every teacher?
ok here goes.
mrs. poiser. yr prep.
can't remember names, but a school near stockholm, one thing i did to a teacher at this school was to trick her into thinking in australia april fools day was a day where people didn't eat lollies.
some kind of trick. joke. to do with lollies. like trick or treat. except changing it to april fools.
massive surprise. then laughter a joke. one of my previous best friends evelina went to this school :)
mrs. wilson. yr 1 + 2
mrs. jackson yr 3+4 (not the horsey jackson, the other one :) )
mrs. mayne yr 5+6 [and a little bit of mrs. tedge too]
yr.7 mr.cummings. mr.w . . . english. taught me about animal farm. hitlers daughter. media watch. ok make it easier.
years 7-11. mrs pearce.literature.
mrs myers.international studies.
mr. hyde. history.
[somehow always reminded me of dr.jekyl and mr.hyde. . .got no idea why tho]
mrs.kerry sport.
mrs. brown sport.
mrs.turnbull music.
mr.walker science [and his son luke from grovey west]
anja-art [history and creative] and home economics [cooking and budgeting]
marie-wood work
sebastian-nature knowledge. . . yep science :)
anna karin- social studies. [religion, un, many things]
the sports teacher dude. really nice. and last but not least.
lisa and andrew.
overseeing my entire life.
elin and anders.
f you want the most founded concrete truth. ask them for a story. an example. an explanation. a memory.
ok and this whole 'ghost' theory? ok lets ground this in explanation. again anything i receive is a direction. so expectation=direction [depending on personality=order, advice, help, rescue] reactions are the source of analysis. i use my eyes. my ears. my nose. my touch. and my hearts instinct. as well as my analytical green abilities. my evaluative blue abilities. my creative yellow abilities. and my caring red abilities.
everywhere i go i am formed into something, depending on what people concretely expect. the rest works the same as bluetooth, radio, and television. just ask the news reporter and interviewee on channel ABC last night :) or the people on the station i listen to daily. triple j. or the people i communicate with via mobile phone.
when i say i know the power of words, well i really mean power.
when someone writes a word down, they write it in a specific way. or say a word. ok so everybody knows about words. they are symbols. BUT! every person attaches to them an individual understanding to each word via every sentence they've come across with this word in it. yes? ok, so when i receive a word i receive every part of the word, the idea attached, the emotion attached, if someone uses a word whilst thinking about something, i receive this specication. an explanation/example lies in my letters. with vincent armenia & my reluctance to go out with him to lorne. double check and see. both the words. and the person. i am sorry though. i deleted all my letters. i need the help of someone else to make every last one available to the public please! :)
ok so i have explained a theory- the cross cultures theory influence. i have neglected the biological theory.
as teenagers men are at the stage of learning how to care for a family. this means: hunting [violent sport] to bring back to the family. therefore violence is simply a biological need to hunt. nowadays? men hunt women. they do it in packs of tribes as families-socially. to look for a suitable one. friends.
a good example is gangsters. to belong to the family you speak a certain way. you dress a certain way. you act a certain way. to join you pass a test.
now this all relates back to the front page article on The Age a couple days ago.
this amazing new found theory?
well guess what. i new about it as it was happening. i accepted this intrusion as mateo was part of what i felt family. and i realised instantly and instinctively that it was a protective instinct. protecting a vulnerable son.
research into whether or not the lyrics i saw related to reality.
a warning to a son to watch his thoughts.
OH CRAP! that's paranoid inducing isn't it?
a check into economics to see if wealth is abundant.
well no. a budget just like everyone else. priorities lying in travel and being very expensive.
a monitoring of texts to double check honesty and faith [mob]
a monitoring of emails/letters to double check honesty and faith [internet]
not only this but a monitoring of travel physically via a massive network of friends. to double check and have a looksee what i am like and how i am going. to meet me indirectly via society. interesting hey?
well you know i used to find enormous entertainment in tricking the 'cameras' as an actor. on a bus. home from school. but i didn't realize it was simply an enquiry-indirectly into how i was going. a hope 4 reconnection.
i have memories of a person sitting on a train and receiving txt msgs back and forth. it was vincent's friend. he had a hood. a white one. like a comfy safe protection. as the conversation went i was observed. information passed. a reaction happened in me. a reaction happened. info passed back to vincent. a txt replied and i received a burst of joy and pain simultaneously. like inside my heart something really beautiful and nice. but then turning into pain. a very hurting ache. this process happened over and over. as the txt msg conversation continued.
now i never received any specific words. at the time certain actions would have been analysed. all i remember is the emotions because this happened to me many many months ago and my strength is emotions. but i mean colours and people too. space. i sat on the left side. he on the right side. i slightly behind him. i have an awareness of space. due to sport&juggling. &btw here's a list of my sportive knowledge: soccer, badminton, tennis, volleyball, netball, basketball, swimming, cricket, aussie rules, rugby, boxing, floorball [swedish-innebandy], jogging/sprinting. all taught by teachers. strongest being basketball, tennis, soccer, netball, badminton having played all of those for either a season or in a tournament.
ok. so back to my purpose. an explanation of ghosts. also every emotion attached to an expectation changes things. so a scared expectation makes me think this guy shouldn't be exposed to certainty, cos he'll get even more scared. but its an overload response. so what's the truth, you figure it out. :)
anyhow- so called 'spirits' are anchored to brains. always. anyone can send an expectation into the whirlpool of reality. it seems to dissappear. but no it goes up in smoke like wood in a fire. the energy of the sun lies concrete in trees. this physicality changes. from a coal source [wood being a dead type of cell spreading in layers [if cut down]- to a smoke. a chemical process no? so if someone dead is missed enough you can need something so much, so to create a belief in what you need, a perceived ghost. but wait! stop! what is a ghost? it is simply any form of memory/knowledge. taking form in a person. i have experienced 2 ppl missing someone enough to create that person in me. my mother. in our garden-jan juc. and my mathematical teacher (male) last year. sorry to expose. but these are concrete examples.
this extends to the big picture. any overlying/underlying major influence you believe in is simply created by your brain and your strength of belief. this has a function. not to control people but to guide via rules.
i don't believe any such concrete 'thing' exists. i mean i am fundamentally aware that if it does, well WE create it. as a very intelligent species.
because i am not in any way religiously christened. and church has been a brief experience 4 me in sweden. i loved the singing! :D otherwise no church visited. no 'god'. only people. real people.
my mother was brought up lutheran christian. but got interested in buddhism.
my father was bought up well i spose christian since my grandparents are both pretty english seeming, wat kind i'm not sure. my mother has very strong evaluative analytical skills. my father has a mass of ideas running through his head at such a speed that its hard to focus on one. he looks at the bigger picture. [revisit my letters, a communist saying] the gentleman looks at the big picture. interesting. a man who is gentle, looks at the big picture.
i felt silly in a church initially. but i sang loud& i inspired others to do the same. so i didn't realize i was positive until now. i loved to sing so, i did it :)
anyhow. here are my chosen favourite subjects: biology, international studies, literature, swedish, english, further maths (the simplest form-making it a manageable form), and media both in high school and at uni. i also enjoy sport, philosophy, chemistry, visual communication design [VCD], history. but they weren't my favourite interests. however i remember them :) plus my grandfather/father both really are walking wikipedias. :) i love dinner table discussions. just read 'daughter of venice' :) so i have a knowledge of lots of traditional things too.
another idea i had.
abraham lincoln abolished slavery a generation ago. but its reappeared as a much darker form. sex slaves. does it remind you of the dark ages? with the witches? did i explain. have a looksee back up there :)
follow abraham lincoln, produce another MLK-martin luther king! :D
another idea i had. to organise specified global meetings. not generalised. you know how we have these mass meetings between all the leaders? well doesn't it make sense to have mass meetings between all the specialists? i suggest. that maybe someone could start organising a whole calendar of meetings focussing on: sociology [encompassing everything under this topic-culture], philosophy [questions], mathematics [evaluation], art [creation], sport [physical space], science [physical investigations into how things are put together], history [recent and past] international studies [otherwise known as IR international relations] and simply history-to be learned from. remember the list of sciences i put up. go back to that. then what can be produced is the most amazing education world wide. maybe the international baccalaureate already exists. i have no idea how to spell that word. that's my guess from memory. . . *blushes embarrased* hang on a sec. i'll just go check google to correct it. yep double checked. its all good. correct. sorry just a little unsure there for a second. with origins from every nation/empire.
we're aiming to produce some geniuses here! some people like me
its probably gonna take about 30 years. i mean look at sweden. they new about this in the 70s. they went thru a $ crisis in the 90s and now have a looksee, 2010. past the 1000s. problems are a common thing. solutions are a common thing. help everybody out. its the meaning of life. to learn. to help. that is what i believe in.
all the best in every way C: Britta
and thus my territory.
i protect.
what the bloody hell do you think your doing?
how dare you attack my parents.
how DARE YOU!
both my parents have spent up to 10 years of their lifetimes
in universities. reading. learning. being taught.
wait! my dad's spent 20 years because now he's the teacher.
you are entire institutions.
they are singular people.
HOW FUCKING DARE YOU GANG UP ON THEM!
I HATE YOU ALL!
omgosh. what am i DOing?
i need to calm down.
ok.
so my mother spent 10 years in uni. and has spent 20-25 years
in australia. 20-25 years in sweden.
my father grew up here. but he spent some time in america as a child.
he also spent some time in sweden. as a teenager/adult.
so education in 2-3 places.
parents (or grandparents) who as far as I know are very good and kind.
and they are by no means insane.
they have simply lived with the proof all their lives.
if you deny and disbelieve.
WELL BLOODY HELL!
simply go and ask someone who has a concrete story/ example via a real experience with me to tell you.
jebus its hard to sleep when you let this happen to you.
i spent the hours of something like 2am to 6am writing this.
i realize why cos i've had time and seclusion.
anyhow. back to the beginning. here i go. *intake of breath* and dive.
so what am i doing? swimming.
a long time ago approximately two years ago i was outraged by the label
witch. offended to the core.
i asked someone to treat me like one then. treat me like a witch then.
throw me in the river. if i sink like a piece of wood i am human. because humans sink.
if i float then clearly i am a witch.
but what? hang ooooooooooooon. someone's a witch because they can swim?
swimming is a learnt thing. its nothing to be afraid of. but back then swimming
was not a learnt thing. it was something foreign. something to be afraid of.
as was water. it was not understood.
so called 'witches' are doctors. they fundamentally understood the power of herbs.
they experimented with mixing herbs in their natural state. tea. soup. whatever you wish to call it.
for medicinal effects. they were experts learning from specific things. and what did we do?
kill them all. put them in trials. and hang them up on ropes? or burn them alive in fires.
well sorry but according to me, if everyone's religion is right [positive] well then everyone's going to hell.
because as a jew if u don't believe in christianity you go to hell. as a muslim if you don't believe in judaism you go to hell.
as a christian if you don't believe in buddhism you go to hell. what? so everyone's believing different things, i mean
we're different people, does that mean we're all going to hell?
well sooooooorreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee for offending you. but logically that doesn't make sense to me.
everyone's going to hell? what's this hell place your on about. where is it. have you visited it? can you tell me about it.
because i'm sure some people live in it here on earth. and i'm sure some people live in heaven here on earth. its called depression. and happiness. a beautiful dream. a scary dream.
so. here's what i wrote.
function of a book: to give knowledge. what determines it: the way it is used by the person.
if you remain unconvinced here is the basis of my knowledge as far as i can recall:
the isobelle carmody obernewtyn chronicles. sound like japan-america? egypt-italy?
philip pullamn-dark trilogy chronicles, look like christianity modern day?
lian hearn-chronicles umm. . . the pillow one, the nightinggale floor, the cuckoos nest etc. [japan/china not sure which one] ?
juliet marrilier-chronicles- umm the dark mirror etc [ireland]. wildwood dancing [turkey]
something franklin biography-similar to marie curie the scientist's story, except discovery of DNA.
alchemist-paulo coelho
the detective stories [african] with colourful covers, a female main character and her detective business.
astrid lindgren's stories-as movies
disney's stories-as both movies and books
the full metal alchemist-anime series
les miserables-anime series
heroes-US tv show
lie to me-US tv show
OC-US tv show
arthur
the irish cartoon w the pigs & animals
animal farm-george orwell
1984-george orwell
catcher in the rye-J.D.Salinger
odo hirsch-chronicles&novels-including the one about a butcher/knife something
as well as the mouse, and the little girl, and the adventurer ones.
a floating house book. about a house on a boat. with the picture on the cover.
emily rodda. the charm bracelet series. and the journey of a man through a world series [the jewels one] and one of the books from the series called bushka or something. to do with a society herding cows going up into the mountains and finding a golden society.
doften av vanilj [swedish] book, about connecting smells to memories [emotional memories]
en tjejs kyss [or something like that] like peter pan. the importance of holding onto your first kiss.
nackrosdammen. that series. about a girl going through high school during wartime.
the secret garden [read in swedish]
umm... that swedish cat cartoon in the books with the black&white cat.
höstlöv or something. a series of books about a girl going through school as a teenager as a 'normal' person.
the colour scarlett or something. about king richard.
rosa-russia. the society/historically. THE BEAR! that news article! nothing ridiculous, but something grounded! i get it! wow getting things makes me excited. not getting things makes me upset. anyhow.
the wind singer-about muslims- a princess hidden behind a veil.
does my head look big in this?
that rain in spain falls mainly on the plain movie. . . my fair lady? 'proper' manners. rules.
the taxi driver-robert de niro. potential for danger.
bomben [swedish film]. terrorism.
the cat returns-anime movie-communism.
rain men-tom cruise-autism.
this is good as it gets-jack nicholson. happiness.
bucket list-morgan freeman. dreams to fulfill.
unbreakable-samuel jackson and bruce willis. a weakness is something that can be overcome.
rage in placid lake-finding self identity. hilarious rebellion.
the bridge to terabithia-dakota fanning. the beautiful escape of childhood fantasy.
the little mermaid
the swan princess
madeline
all possibly myths turned into shows?
pippi long stockings- inspiration for childhood. the creative freedom yet mature learning to be independent.
ronja rövar dotter. the male and female becoming friends and forming a bond between a fight. . . romeo and juliet anyone? or. . . britta and mateo maybe? what a ludicrous suggestion.
karlsson på taket- a prime minister's name used to symbolize something. [laughed at in russia because of the recognition to the movie] :)
rain-something-girl w a list [dark hair]. alternative movie. made by an alternative production group.
thread- french- something to do with cancer/pregnancy, wears her hair up in a towel similar to the girl with a pearl earring but only cos of the towel.
water- indian film. deepa mehta. amazing. studied in year 12 last year.
emma- the old version with judy campbell and ralph michael. 1948. the importance of not dabbling in others affairs and mixing it up unintentionally without knowing the full story.
whale rider- the importance of the environment. respect. community.
esther blueberger- the aussie version of mean girls. pretty funny!
unit one.-teamwork to discover the seed of a problem and to solve it.
förbrydelsen. the same thing.
chocolat. wind. change. so many things. you interpret it :D
cooking movie-kitchen, the french one. with an alcoholic woman in a restaurant. blonde. goes through change.
so. clearly i have a good recall. where does this come from i wonder?
my mother has an amazing recall of numbers. so do i.
off by heart i can reel: my sisters mobile, my mother's mob, my fathers, felicity's, jamie's, my mother and fathers work phones[dad uses his mob], my grandparents home phone.
sorry anders! haven't memorized yours for some reason. . .
my new home phone. my old home phone. my new car registration. my old car registration. RZM 714. NPP 979.
not mine. my family's.
just ask me, i'll recall perfectly if you wish :D
you think i'm showing off do you? no no. not seeking attention. seeking understanding. awareness.
i can make a mistake- such as entering $10 given into a register, when $6.70 was given accidently. thus having learnt to count back to $10 from $6.70 i fixed it.
i have read through every school report given to me. my parents tell me all the feedback from teachers. explaining. according to my mathematics teacher i have a natural gift for mathematics. however it is my weakest area. i did a test @ alpine school. my square looked something like this: look to the uploaded photograph.
there are huge institutions/societies of people that have experienced me and my history.
grovedale west- b4 maturity. waurn ponds-vic-australia
bellbrae-after maturity. bellbrae/torquay/jan juc- vic-australia
matthew flinders gsc-geelong cbd-vic-australia
the alpine school-vic alps-vic-australia
sweden-allé skolan-floda-lerum-gothenburg-sweden
monash-clayton-vic-australia
do you wish me to recalll everyone's names, every teacher?
ok here goes.
mrs. poiser. yr prep.
can't remember names, but a school near stockholm, one thing i did to a teacher at this school was to trick her into thinking in australia april fools day was a day where people didn't eat lollies.
some kind of trick. joke. to do with lollies. like trick or treat. except changing it to april fools.
massive surprise. then laughter a joke. one of my previous best friends evelina went to this school :)
mrs. wilson. yr 1 + 2
mrs. jackson yr 3+4 (not the horsey jackson, the other one :) )
mrs. mayne yr 5+6 [and a little bit of mrs. tedge too]
yr.7 mr.cummings. mr.w . . . english. taught me about animal farm. hitlers daughter. media watch. ok make it easier.
years 7-11. mrs pearce.literature.
mrs myers.international studies.
mr. hyde. history.
[somehow always reminded me of dr.jekyl and mr.hyde. . .got no idea why tho]
mrs.kerry sport.
mrs. brown sport.
mrs.turnbull music.
mr.walker science [and his son luke from grovey west]
anja-art [history and creative] and home economics [cooking and budgeting]
marie-wood work
sebastian-nature knowledge. . . yep science :)
anna karin- social studies. [religion, un, many things]
the sports teacher dude. really nice. and last but not least.
lisa and andrew.
overseeing my entire life.
elin and anders.
f you want the most founded concrete truth. ask them for a story. an example. an explanation. a memory.
ok and this whole 'ghost' theory? ok lets ground this in explanation. again anything i receive is a direction. so expectation=direction [depending on personality=order, advice, help, rescue] reactions are the source of analysis. i use my eyes. my ears. my nose. my touch. and my hearts instinct. as well as my analytical green abilities. my evaluative blue abilities. my creative yellow abilities. and my caring red abilities.
everywhere i go i am formed into something, depending on what people concretely expect. the rest works the same as bluetooth, radio, and television. just ask the news reporter and interviewee on channel ABC last night :) or the people on the station i listen to daily. triple j. or the people i communicate with via mobile phone.
when i say i know the power of words, well i really mean power.
when someone writes a word down, they write it in a specific way. or say a word. ok so everybody knows about words. they are symbols. BUT! every person attaches to them an individual understanding to each word via every sentence they've come across with this word in it. yes? ok, so when i receive a word i receive every part of the word, the idea attached, the emotion attached, if someone uses a word whilst thinking about something, i receive this specication. an explanation/example lies in my letters. with vincent armenia & my reluctance to go out with him to lorne. double check and see. both the words. and the person. i am sorry though. i deleted all my letters. i need the help of someone else to make every last one available to the public please! :)
ok so i have explained a theory- the cross cultures theory influence. i have neglected the biological theory.
as teenagers men are at the stage of learning how to care for a family. this means: hunting [violent sport] to bring back to the family. therefore violence is simply a biological need to hunt. nowadays? men hunt women. they do it in packs of tribes as families-socially. to look for a suitable one. friends.
a good example is gangsters. to belong to the family you speak a certain way. you dress a certain way. you act a certain way. to join you pass a test.
now this all relates back to the front page article on The Age a couple days ago.
this amazing new found theory?
well guess what. i new about it as it was happening. i accepted this intrusion as mateo was part of what i felt family. and i realised instantly and instinctively that it was a protective instinct. protecting a vulnerable son.
research into whether or not the lyrics i saw related to reality.
a warning to a son to watch his thoughts.
OH CRAP! that's paranoid inducing isn't it?
a check into economics to see if wealth is abundant.
well no. a budget just like everyone else. priorities lying in travel and being very expensive.
a monitoring of texts to double check honesty and faith [mob]
a monitoring of emails/letters to double check honesty and faith [internet]
not only this but a monitoring of travel physically via a massive network of friends. to double check and have a looksee what i am like and how i am going. to meet me indirectly via society. interesting hey?
well you know i used to find enormous entertainment in tricking the 'cameras' as an actor. on a bus. home from school. but i didn't realize it was simply an enquiry-indirectly into how i was going. a hope 4 reconnection.
i have memories of a person sitting on a train and receiving txt msgs back and forth. it was vincent's friend. he had a hood. a white one. like a comfy safe protection. as the conversation went i was observed. information passed. a reaction happened in me. a reaction happened. info passed back to vincent. a txt replied and i received a burst of joy and pain simultaneously. like inside my heart something really beautiful and nice. but then turning into pain. a very hurting ache. this process happened over and over. as the txt msg conversation continued.
now i never received any specific words. at the time certain actions would have been analysed. all i remember is the emotions because this happened to me many many months ago and my strength is emotions. but i mean colours and people too. space. i sat on the left side. he on the right side. i slightly behind him. i have an awareness of space. due to sport&juggling. &btw here's a list of my sportive knowledge: soccer, badminton, tennis, volleyball, netball, basketball, swimming, cricket, aussie rules, rugby, boxing, floorball [swedish-innebandy], jogging/sprinting. all taught by teachers. strongest being basketball, tennis, soccer, netball, badminton having played all of those for either a season or in a tournament.
ok. so back to my purpose. an explanation of ghosts. also every emotion attached to an expectation changes things. so a scared expectation makes me think this guy shouldn't be exposed to certainty, cos he'll get even more scared. but its an overload response. so what's the truth, you figure it out. :)
anyhow- so called 'spirits' are anchored to brains. always. anyone can send an expectation into the whirlpool of reality. it seems to dissappear. but no it goes up in smoke like wood in a fire. the energy of the sun lies concrete in trees. this physicality changes. from a coal source [wood being a dead type of cell spreading in layers [if cut down]- to a smoke. a chemical process no? so if someone dead is missed enough you can need something so much, so to create a belief in what you need, a perceived ghost. but wait! stop! what is a ghost? it is simply any form of memory/knowledge. taking form in a person. i have experienced 2 ppl missing someone enough to create that person in me. my mother. in our garden-jan juc. and my mathematical teacher (male) last year. sorry to expose. but these are concrete examples.
this extends to the big picture. any overlying/underlying major influence you believe in is simply created by your brain and your strength of belief. this has a function. not to control people but to guide via rules.
i don't believe any such concrete 'thing' exists. i mean i am fundamentally aware that if it does, well WE create it. as a very intelligent species.
because i am not in any way religiously christened. and church has been a brief experience 4 me in sweden. i loved the singing! :D otherwise no church visited. no 'god'. only people. real people.
my mother was brought up lutheran christian. but got interested in buddhism.
my father was bought up well i spose christian since my grandparents are both pretty english seeming, wat kind i'm not sure. my mother has very strong evaluative analytical skills. my father has a mass of ideas running through his head at such a speed that its hard to focus on one. he looks at the bigger picture. [revisit my letters, a communist saying] the gentleman looks at the big picture. interesting. a man who is gentle, looks at the big picture.
i felt silly in a church initially. but i sang loud& i inspired others to do the same. so i didn't realize i was positive until now. i loved to sing so, i did it :)
anyhow. here are my chosen favourite subjects: biology, international studies, literature, swedish, english, further maths (the simplest form-making it a manageable form), and media both in high school and at uni. i also enjoy sport, philosophy, chemistry, visual communication design [VCD], history. but they weren't my favourite interests. however i remember them :) plus my grandfather/father both really are walking wikipedias. :) i love dinner table discussions. just read 'daughter of venice' :) so i have a knowledge of lots of traditional things too.
another idea i had.
abraham lincoln abolished slavery a generation ago. but its reappeared as a much darker form. sex slaves. does it remind you of the dark ages? with the witches? did i explain. have a looksee back up there :)
follow abraham lincoln, produce another MLK-martin luther king! :D
another idea i had. to organise specified global meetings. not generalised. you know how we have these mass meetings between all the leaders? well doesn't it make sense to have mass meetings between all the specialists? i suggest. that maybe someone could start organising a whole calendar of meetings focussing on: sociology [encompassing everything under this topic-culture], philosophy [questions], mathematics [evaluation], art [creation], sport [physical space], science [physical investigations into how things are put together], history [recent and past] international studies [otherwise known as IR international relations] and simply history-to be learned from. remember the list of sciences i put up. go back to that. then what can be produced is the most amazing education world wide. maybe the international baccalaureate already exists. i have no idea how to spell that word. that's my guess from memory. . . *blushes embarrased* hang on a sec. i'll just go check google to correct it. yep double checked. its all good. correct. sorry just a little unsure there for a second. with origins from every nation/empire.
we're aiming to produce some geniuses here! some people like me
its probably gonna take about 30 years. i mean look at sweden. they new about this in the 70s. they went thru a $ crisis in the 90s and now have a looksee, 2010. past the 1000s. problems are a common thing. solutions are a common thing. help everybody out. its the meaning of life. to learn. to help. that is what i believe in.
all the best in every way C: Britta
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