rainbows and queens

Colours:
Orange: true friendship
Yellow: either poison, honey, sunshine, or fire, whichever you see it as
White: either utter oblivion, nothingness, or purity, innocence [are they one and the same?]
Grey: confusion
Black: strength, safety, or terror
Purple: the colour of royals, lifts all those who’s troubles outweigh their own weight in kilograms, and makes them true royals. For what is it to be royal, traditionally? Easy? By no means. Royalty can mean isolation, desolation, introspection, and possibly depression. So if your favourite colour is purple, then you are royalty, there’s no doubt about it.
Red: luck, anger, amour, embarrassment, and mothers [who are the queens of life, just like a queen bee, except not the regina from mean girls kind]
Blue: peace, tranquillity, commotion, sadness, undefined/uncertain,
Green: health inside and out, purity, unique
Those are my interpretations of colours.
You can go ahead and make your own if you like C:
Also you know how some dogs with particularly good smell can sniff out if their owner has an injury? Well maybe my hearing is good enough to hear people’s inner wishes? I mean yesterday my father was out walking our family dog and he saw some raindrops begin to fall down near booran rd, i was standing inside safeway on Glenhuntly rd and i could already smell those raindrops on the ground before the rain had fallen outside safeway. if that’s my sense of smell, what is my sense of hearing like? i mean i knew that i’m sensitive to taste, chilli, ginger and sweets and so on, but maybe i’m extra sensitive in all senses. my father had his hearing checked before an ear operation, and he was told he had above average hearing. I’m his daughter. Make the links. c:

and if my speciality is emotions, then my emotional ‘sense’ is strongest of all. everbody has one. you know that vibe you get when someone’s about to cry? Well when i get that vibe, i start to cry because it is just too hard to withstand. Sometimes i can, but it's really difficult.
Also if somebody thinks, op she’s about to cry, boom i cry. It’s much, much harder to withstand expectations than vibes. Believe you me. I’ve had more than enough experience in expectations.

or you know when a teacher walks into the classroom and you just know already that she’s had an awful day and not likely to be in a pleasant mood? That kind of vibe? for some reason, those are easier to stand back from.
Maybe it’s because i’ve trained myself in self control in some circumstances. i’m aware that when i get angry, something ancient, something deep, i don’t mean like under my skin deep, i mean something right at the core of my conscious mind, right at the core of my subconscious and unconscious mind, beneath my mind altogether, something truly dark, truly deep, something truly fearsome rises up in my blood. It rises and i feel as if i can’t control it, as if it could strike anyone. And i must leave. I must. There is nothing i can do but leave. Immediately. this has happened to me only twice in my lifetime so far. each time was just as unpleasant. Both due to perceived injustice. and no i don’t have anger management problems, anybody who knows me may say that i am quite tolerant compared to most. I know that it pays to be tolerant, because you have much better friends that way. Much better. Learnt that from my brother c:
Anyhow. This blood thing that rises in me, it scares even me. I mean it’s just so dark. but i’m aware that without it, i wouldn’t be able to, to i don’t know love people the way i love. Be happy the way i can be happy. I simply just wouldn’t be me. i think it’s part of my Scottish bloodline.
I have many bloodlines however. As previously listed:
Estonia, Denmark, Sweden, Scotland, Netherlands [Rotterdam], and possibly England that brings me to an observation i made some weeks past, guess what? I have red hair. wow.
Guess what my mother’s first full name is? the Scandinavian form of Elizabeth.

yeah i’m not going to go any further. I just think that all mothers are like queen Elizabeth. Leading their family to victory C:
All the best in every way
C: britta